venting.

A lot has gon on since I last wrote anything. But I am seeing things in myself dat I just don't like. This can't be who I am. Reality is not reality. Am I really this evil? Its like I'm livin a nightmare... and ure da victim of it. I'm doin things I never thought I wud do. I know I'm better den this. Especially earlier. It was like having an outer body experience. I watched myself be a monster and I cuddnt stop it. I don't wanna be like dis. Maybe I shud off myself. I apologize.

Just don't give up.